hello there, it's just me: the same old brand new me.

Well hello there everyone! How has 2013 been going for you so far? It's been going great for me! I'm still the same old same old me, or maybe I've changed a little, but only just a little ;)

Things have been going great lately. Abah has fully recovered from leptospirosis. Alhamdulillah for that. He no longer needs to feed from a tube and has even started driving again. He is also able to continue with his chemotherapy so he can go on with his fight against Cancer. You go Abah! After he survived that, I think nothing else in the world mattered to us. Even those things I used to think were so big before, didn't seem so big to me anymore. We're all just so thankful that we still have our father, and Mum still has a husband. Allah has spared him, as well as us. He's given us more time with him. We will never ever take that for granted. The lesson learnt here is to always always be careful where and what you eat. We suspect Abah contracted his leptospirosis from the Filipino Market when we were in Sabah. The place was pretty dirty, but I'm not saying don't go to Sabah and all that. I'm just saying that you should always be careful. If the place looks dirty, it probably is. Even if it's cheap, your life isn't. Oh, and always always remember to read your doa makan before you consume anything. Ask God to protect you from any harm you could get from eating the food.

Abah and Mum choosing seafood at the Filipino Market

Ok, about Masters, I'm still waiting for a reply. There have been rumours about it being full for this intake so we might get pushed to the next one in September. Oh well if it does come to that, I'm gonna go get some working experience first. Don't get me wrong though, I do love my current job very much and my boss has offered me to work part time because she still needs my help and I too want to see this research through, till the very end but, I love teaching even more and I really really want to get some teaching experience. There have been many job opportunities popping up. I feel very blessed that every once in a while someone offers me a job, it's just a matter of choosing the right one and sending in my resume. I'm just gonna wait till mid February and if I hear nothing from UPM, then well, it's time to get a new job! Fingers crossed!

Another happy story to tell is that I've finally met someone (well actually we've known each other for quite some time already) but you know, nothing was really possible back then. I've known him for a little over two years now but we've been going strong for around over 6 months to date. He's a great guy. He's met with my family, had dinner once and has lunch with mum and me quite often. He looked after our cats when we were in Sabah and Abah even gave him a key into the house then. That's how much they trust him, and that's good. I do hope something good comes of this, because I have had enough of being sad. We're not going to rush anything because he too has just finished his studies but at least he's willing to look into the future with me, and that to me is as good as it gets. His name is Syafiq Asyraf. I just call him Syafiq. I'll be frank and tell you that he is best friends with Role. You know, the dude that told me he didn't have a girlfriend but actually did, and for five years already. I don't think it's any important to go too deep into the details but to cut to the chase, now I'm with Syafiq. Don't worry. It's nothing behind anybodies back. Nothing like that. Syafiq has told Role and they're ok and Role and I are too now so I guess it's all good. Though sometimes he does call me up in the middle of the night, not quite right in the head and he tells me silly things like he misses me and stuff. It's kinda sad, and I do feel kinda bad to be moving on and leaving him behind like that but this is a journey he has to take himself. You know, I honestly don't regret any of it but nor do I regret leaving. From this, I have learnt that you cannot ever convince people to love you, no matter how hard you try. This is an absolute rule. No one will ever give you love because you want him or her to give it. I learned that the hard way. Real love moves freely in both directions. So you shouldn't waste your time on anything else, but instead, learn to love back.

My new hello ;)

 

Andddd happy story number four is actually a combination of happy stories that don't even really belong to me. Haha. But I am happy for them. Bella is engaged and is planning to get married sometime this year. Nana got married last month/year. Vinn, Madil, Jack, Syafiq and me made our best efforts to make it to her wedding day, even though it wasn't her side but we made it so yeay! It was a fun road trip to be having with friends and seeing Nana happy to see us there was priceless :) The third and most recent happening was when Tok gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. We were so excited! We've been excited since we first knew she was pregnant! Hihi. This baby is our Tengo jr. So he's very special to us. We went to pay them a visit yesterday and oh my, the buzz from holding a new born baby in my arms is still there! Can't wait to see him grow up :)

 

beautiful mama with beautiful baby :)

 

So, this is all I have time for now. Lets pray I don't come back in another two months to update because homaigat updating two months worth of stories in one post is really tough! Haha.. Well, take care then everyone. Lets write a better story this year! ;)

 

 

 

 

"The only thing I know is this: I am full of wounds and still standing on my feet."